finally blogging as im finally feeling better haha....
had been sick the whole week n damnit did it sux being in bed
for 7 days...except for wednesday which i forced myself to go to sch
to send my mc n for mp/sip judging...missed 2 outings with phay han
and sharmila...so sorry guys...ill make it up to u... aite =D
well i missed talking to some ppl on the phone n some online...
missed going to sch to disturb ppl...yes to disturb ppl...i dun miss studying lol...
eventho i feel like im falling behind alot being away for a whole week >.<
Labels: cobaan
7:11 AM
Sunday, November 30, 2008
&& i think of u every night~
my day has been...very...ermm ok i guess hahahaha...
wake up very early in the morning...bathed went out for a
very early morning jog haha...came back home...
bathed again had breakfast n started to play some com games...
till 9am...den started to continue writing my project report...
den had a great chat with nisa...now im gonna take a very longgggg
nap haha....
4:32 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
&& i think of u every night~
this is made afew weeks ago for a certain person hope that person reads it
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If I have ever brought you pain
Or caused your heart to grieve
Please listen now as I explain
The reason I believe
Each time I look into your eyes
I see a peaceful place
Removed from anger, ache, and sighs
Filled with sheer poise and grace.
I see a world where all is well
Each piece, perfectly paired
It is easy for me to tell
No life could be compared
To each blessing God has bestowed
Upon your earthen days
Or all the goodness you have showed
That left someone amazed.
My life seems immaterial
When placed here by your side
Your goodness is imperial
To what I can provide
Therefore, I often feel as though
I must ascend above
The bounds that I am meant to go
To meet your view of love.
If I have ever brought you grief
I shall express regret
For it is my sincere belief
Your heart I won’t forget
Your essence holds timeless beauty
Like that of the finest wine
And I’ve made your love, my duty
Though, you might never be mine.
3:51 PM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
&& i think of u every night~
12 nov
met up with ian in sch ard 1020am sorry ian aku lambat sikit hehe...but den we had to wait almost 2hrs for hilmi, adeline and faizal to turn up so we were just bored to death...while waiting suddenly hazim joined us haha...had some laughs...when the other 3 did turn up...ian n din went to eat at mensa while the rest of us went to eat at breadboard....den i had to go for cds...which was better than i expected it to be...after class...i met up with them again...and somebody said something that made me think about something n made me sad n moody for the rest of the day...so sorry hilmi n ain cos u guys saw that very moody side of me hehe=p....
5:46 AM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
&& i think of u every night~
ya Allah tolong la hambamu ini...
kuatkan la iman aku ini ya Allah...
tolong la aku mengharungi liku-liku kehidupan
tolong la aku dapat kehidupan yg aman n damai....
i dunno if i can take anymore heartbreaks...
anymore disappointments (with sch n what nots)...
i do cry myself to sleep on most nites(nothing wrong with a guy crying)
sometimes i wish i can turn back time n change history...
haix...~
Labels: sad life story
9:53 PM
Friday, November 7, 2008
&& i think of u every night~
ARGH!
i cant take it anymore since u hate me soo much...until u make me feel like im not even
a fren of urs!!!...i give up!!!...ill get out from ur blissful life with whoever...i MIGHT be around if u want
me to be...but if not den ull just wont see me... i would say im sorry for everything
but im not! cos i dun think ive ever done anything wrong towards u!...i just guess
im not allowed to love or wont be loved by anybody...but who gives a shit about
me rite?tts rite nobody....
i just hope my perangai wont revert back to how it was during sec sch...
thx but no thx...
n im gonna say sorry to 2 friends...1) sorry tau plan tk jadi =(
2)sorry menyusahkan kau
below is an original song meant for her with some help from a very close
friend...too bad tk menjadi my hajat to sing it for her:
c e
pertama kali ku melihat dirimu
a d
Ku rasa mesranya di hatiku
c e
Senyummu ayu, menawan hatiku
a d
ku ingin mu selalu
c e
Aku merasa, dirimu adalah
a d
seorang insan indah manisnya
c e
Akan ku bina, istana
a d
dan juga permata ah.
c g
aku disini serbegini
a d
tetap menunggumu selalu
c g
Aku tkkan menjadi bekas-bekasmu
a d
yg selalu memusnahkan hatimu
c/e/a/d x2
c e
pertama kali ku mendengar suaramu
a d
oh manis nya, ayu sunggunya
c e
suara manis merdu sang bayu
a d
sedap didengar selalu
c e
Aku merasa, dirimu adalah
a d
seorang insan indah manisnya
c e
Akan ku bina, istana
a d
dan juga permata ah.
c g
aku disini serbegini
a d
tetap menunggumu selalu
c g
Aku tkkan menjadi bekas-bekasmu
a d
yg selalu memusnahkan hatimu
c g
akn ku siram cinta ku yg suci
a d
utk menjadi bukti....
c g
aku akn sbr utk memiliki mu
a d
sentiasa berada untukmu
c/e/a/d
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n below is a poem meant 4 her but hajat tk sampai to give it to her
I want to call you
but your not there
I want to see you
but you dont care
I want to tell you i love you
but you would probably ignore me
I want to kiss you
but you would turn away
I want to hold you
and tell you everything will be alright
I want you to care
even if its only a little
And when I tell you this
I want us to be more
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once again GOOD BYE
10:23 PM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
&& i think of u every night~
hmm lets see on monday went to driving revision ard 1245 went drove all over ubi and tampines lol...the instructor asked me..."how did u fail the last time?u drive ok wat eventho 2 months nvr touch a car"...and i was just like" i guess i was too nervous?" hahaha....well den yesterday went for another prac...everything went smoothly...except for a near accident with a stupid/moronic/idiotic j-walker..and was also caught in a traffic jam nearing the end of the revision...later at 1020 ill be having another driving revision n meeting a cousin of mine at ubi since he will also be having a driving prac there at the same time...after revision i would have to go back to sch for cds...how i regret failing french lol...
well WISH ME LUCK for my DRIVING TEST this coming friday ppl =D
n hoping to see somebody on friday be it i pass or fail....
*hopefully i pass =p *
OH! n yesterday my course manager actually called me to wish me luck
for my driving test hahaha...so nice...n also told me to study hard this sem
cos abit more and my cgpa would be enough for direct intake to ntu or nus xD
7:23 AM
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
&& i think of u every night~
hmm felt like posting abt today haha....
well the day started slow and quite bad for me
and I was not quite in the mood for anything
felt like going out didnt want to disturb hilmi
cos i thought he was sick...but guess wat?
i was wrong haha...well asked my bestfriend
out to lepak...planned to watch a movie but
ended up going to white sands lib to get some
of bestie's assignments done...
den went home together...den at home...
watched the movie leftenan adnan great historical movie...=D
den now here i am posting bout my day....
lets see how my day ends hahaha
8:33 PM
Sunday, November 2, 2008
&& i think of u every night~
i just want you be happy
I just want you to be happy
I might not be the one to make you though
It hurts so much to see you down
I just want you to feel better
I just want you to be happy
I might not be the right one, who knows
It hurts so much to see you decay
I just want you to find the way out
I just want you to be happy
You might not feel like talking to me
But it hurts so much to hear the silence
I'd rather hear you scream from your soul
You never tell me what the pain is for
You let your heart be stuck in the fall
You don't have to share
Just come out of a cage
Then the sun will banish your fears
I just want you to be happy
I might not be the one to make you though
It hurts so much just to be around you
When you are too hard on yourself
I just want you to know (x3)
that it's okay to be happy in the fall
I just want you to be
I just want you to feel
I just want you to be
I just want you to be happy
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ps:no matter what ur decision...
no matter who u choose, i will still be here for u cos all i want is for
u to be happy...happy with the choices u make...
if u need my help or a listening ear, i'll always be there for u
up to u to accept my sincerity or not cos ill wait for u patiently...
but im not here to cause u any more problems...
i just want u to be happy cos i noe i cant force u, sincerely all i want is to see u happy,
sorry if i caused u some
problems in the past...i will wait for u sincerely from a distance hoping nt to stress u out
Labels: just want u to be happy
12:49 PM
Saturday, November 1, 2008
&& i think of u every night~
